"Openness, patience, receptivity, solitude is everything" ― Rainer Maria Rilke
All day today I was panicking because I realized that it was the first of September, the date I planned to launch my new blog, and I had yet to create a post. I wanted to make the beginning perfect: a great first post on a set day, a new beginning, a perfect start.
It dawned on me that today, however, is not September 1st but September 2nd. I had made a mistake.
This beginning speaks a lot to what this blog is all about. Things change no matter what; time flows on despite our best efforts to try to control it. Deadlines and feelings that we should do something are arbitrary. These feelings often paralyze us to the point where we take no action, not realizing that no action is an action itself.
In a lot of ways, this blog is about being vulnerable, about dealing with uncertainty. A blog seems like a grandiose self centered thing to do, but really, I'm making this blog to humble myself.
It's about moving past perfectionism and enjoying the process. It's about committing to something even though it might not always be easy or amazing. It's about change and not only creating but letting things just be.
It dawned on me that today, however, is not September 1st but September 2nd. I had made a mistake.
This beginning speaks a lot to what this blog is all about. Things change no matter what; time flows on despite our best efforts to try to control it. Deadlines and feelings that we should do something are arbitrary. These feelings often paralyze us to the point where we take no action, not realizing that no action is an action itself.
In a lot of ways, this blog is about being vulnerable, about dealing with uncertainty. A blog seems like a grandiose self centered thing to do, but really, I'm making this blog to humble myself.
It's about moving past perfectionism and enjoying the process. It's about committing to something even though it might not always be easy or amazing. It's about change and not only creating but letting things just be.
It's about letting go.
This is what I wanted to say the other day but couldn't from my phone:
ReplyDeleteThank you!
I have been working on moving past perfectionism because, for me, it can be debilitating. It ends up being the root of the majority of my anxiety.. for some reason, I feel the need to put the weight of the world's problems on my shoulders and then stress to the max when I can't control everything.
Half the time I won't even start a task or project because I don't feel that I can entirely control it or make it reach perfection. How gross is that? In the end I would gain so much more if I cold learn to just be more accepting and let go a little bit.
Working on that..
I guess I'm just saying that I'm excited to watch your blog unfold and I love hearing your take on life!